Heart Broken

Eventhough I nvr planned to take the offer
Eventhough I hope that would not receive any calls from them
Eventhough Iworry how to reject them

BUT

When I receive the news that i was being rejected, my heart was breaking...

So sad, so down, so dissapointed, so, so, so....dunnoe how to describe the feeling,

I had read the news few times to confirm the result, to find out any reason stated.

Wonder which part I am not well enough? which part I need to improve? What should I do for my coming plan?