受不了

不知怎么说,我最近好难受...

我在公司觉终觉的越来越觉得好孤独,我那本来唯一的朋友也让我看到他的自私, 他的不可靠...

老板和下属的问题越赖越多, 越来越严重...

没有人能和我分享, 分担,分忧...
没有了解我的困楚, 好无奈, 好无助...

那种想哭却哭不出, 想喊却叫不出, 想说却没人明白的心...
那种呼吸困难, 那种只能倾听所有人的complaint & problems, 只能不停的劝人; 但自己的事只能往肚里吞,只能假装艰强的时克何时能够停止???


救命啊!!!

Exchange Marriage

I had male staff who married in young age (21++) due to wife pregnant, he was one of me anak kesayangan as he have very good attitude and looks guai guai.

I attended his wedding, I been assiting & advicing him during his face family problem & financial issues. recently there is rumuor that his and wife had seperated & he is very close with one of our female staffs that age 36++. At first, i choose not to bother this stupid rumours but till I personally saw them in & out together...suddenly i feel very pain on it.

As usual, I called him to the room with my UH. He told us that with the female staff only sister & bro relationship, nothing special feeling and he dun bother on other comment & view.
When i start to talked abt his wife, he told me a very shocking news 'I married her bcoz her family come and beg me to do that as that time this fren (wife) was pregnant on other guy baby'. WHY U AGREE???? (I shocked and asked). Bcoz his wife promise can help the financial problems of his family. His eye was full of tears, he felt helpless now that wife is getting tire of his non stop family problems. Mother run away, father move back hometown, brother eye operation & money not enough...bcoz of this he willing to marry a gals that carrying other guys baby, what i can give besides sympathy then is nothing

what I can do for him? just pretend nothing and only support him quitely and ask him to be strong...marriage that with exchange condition still happend around me...I still not able to accept this till now, I am still very emotion.

Stupid & Pretender Freak

Freak giving this comment to me during appraisal: ''please put aside your personal problems when you come to work, like me no matter how boss scold me i still can smile work.''

In my mind i was shouting: OMG, he not aware why i always pulling the long face? he not aware i only show this face to him and chen? he dunnoe i avoid him is bcoz i afraid he push more work or talking cock to me? He thought is bcoz i had personal problems, so i bring to office...OMG...is he reali stupid or he is good pretender?

Nowadays no more motivation sms from him, i thought he had stop but he told in briefing he still send the selected staffs, then i aware I am not in the list but why he still not found that i felt that he is very irritating, he is making me frust & he is lie is making very tire.

I request staff extend working hour to 8pm but he orgnise futsal with my staff by 8pm.
Fuck off la, then my staff will come to me 'miss, can we go back earlier today as we got futsal games with mr. Amar'...He did that purposely, he did that to make me angry, don't push me too much, there is limitation on me.

KL Business Retreat

My teammate: from top left Ms. TJ (GM CAG), Vincent (East CMG Mgr), Chen (Southern RM-my boss), Ajith (Senior Mgr CMG), Daniel (Mgr Marketing), Me, Kumar (my best pal in office), Kasai-san ( facilator), Jenelle Koh (Marketing Mgr)

Dinner at Brasserie cafe

live band

Blur foto with chef (taken my handicap Kumar)

My plate was full of different meat, beef, lamb, chicken, sausage as i was greedy to tried all. at lasr couldn finish then keep pushing my leftover to my tablemate...

Ahmed Rithaudiin ( even i dont like his working attitude but still taking foto as he sat beside me)

Faizul (Senior Manager for CAG)

Ms. Soo Lee (HR AGM)

Next day we go for walk at Petaling street as my hotel is nearby. after breakfast, suprisingly there alot lion dance gangs walking around. When we pass by the 我来也, there are giant lion dance was place front of the shop..

side view

The best of this trip is i manage got alot nice & valuabble cloths and pants for my B 仔, he keep smiling when saw the cloths for him even keep nagging i wasted the $.

And i meet Poon, we had very long meeting session and he show me more than 30 videos of his China trip (the actress is Mrs. Poon lor). I feel dizzy and almost vomit after view all as he had very bad shooting skills. I am realli happy when he keep describe his trip to me & he keep smiling when saw his wife in his video...Another quote came into my mind 'Bad things always come with good reason' because of his leaving, our relationship getting closer and now we can talk anything as there is no worries of company issues or boss & subordinate problems...

bcoz of he go, i had another brother, I had another person i can trust.

Missing my long hair

After view back my photo, suddenly i miss my long hair alot....i can tie, can curl, can do bun and do alot pattern on daily style style...
ya...i knew some1 sure will said ' dai sei, already stop u..'''


Huuhmm...I am just miss it but i never regret to cut my hair bcoz i still look nice of it...:P

Movie Movie

Aiyo...there are too much movie i like...no time to watch it one by one, every week I was tight with aot plan and work...make me so itchy...
i think have to sacrify few by watching DVD only.

Amoi 2009 Report Card & 2010 Master Plan

Another 2 days to end up 2009, since i always do appraisal for my staff, is time for me to have details evaluation 2009 on myself.

What I had achieved past 1 year:

1. B仔 getting a job and follow me back JB/S'pore
2. My family accept B仔 and they treat him as part of our family; of coz I also glad that B family also recognise me
3. We have own future planning
4. Brough my parent for HK trip & Trip all plan so details all by myself
5. Great improvement on my driving skills
6. Drove alone to S'pore Bedok, I doesn’t praise on my driving skill, I am praising myself can memorize the route without lost
7. Dare to fight back with freak when he too much, compare last time timid me that keep everything and complaint after work only
8. Brave to report all those illegal action done my boss to HQ
9. Manage to get closer with my staff, especially my high age unit head
10. Break the record of achieve top ranking for D1, Current maximum result.
11. Success learn on Homemade cookies by OWNself
12. Start to be more extrovert & active on my personal life. No more staying home
    Success slim down to 46kgs ( but now weight is moving upward as I return my previous uncontrolled eating habit again)
13. Forgive & forget those working colleagues that let me sad before
14. Of coz not forget to mention that finally I had my OWN blog

My 2010 Target:

1. Got my own Nice Car
2. New house at JB with B仔
3. Start Cruise family trip
4. Vacation trip with my 3 best Amelie, Bernice & Tate
5. Slim down in best figure that i can nicely fit my baju kebaya, I want to be the short but pretty bridesmaid
6. Finish 3 motivation books (only 3? Yup as i did not finish 1 at all during last year)
7. Meet up at least 10 friends that I never see them for 1 years. (make sure I had my friend network back)
8. Start my cookies business/having new career
9. Buy a Punjabi shirt for myself
10. Support education fee for those poor family kids
11. Best Region for CMD
12. Improve in my make up skills ( pasang fake eyelashes & draw seductive eyeliner)
13. Learn ballroom dancing