Poon's Motivation

Ha,ha..Poon realise his promise to join facebook...I reali happy as i can keep in touch with him still...

After reading his caption for Elsa, i start to complaint that he bias...then he also give me some golden advice.

"Janelle, coz' u already there! Juz need to keep your head up and watch out for some over acting ppl. Keep it like fishing, let go a bit, but must know when n how to pull back, otherwise the string will snap. Let go too much, your string will run out. When it is run out, no more string to pull and release. Only pulling is a bit late coz it may snap when there is no buffer!"

What Poon said is realli true, but the issues is ME...I'm too timid to do this...I'm useless!!!

短暂的快乐

今天妈妈告诉我爸爸说以别去旅行了... 出门回来, 家里好象变了, 大家好象都变得不快乐.
我听了, 心抖了一, 好难过, 存了这么久的钱, 计划了这么多, 以为能让他们很开心.
这是我从小到的愿望, 原以为我实现了, 我以为我做到了, 能让我爱的人开心和让他们有个快乐得回忆.
原来他们要的快乐和幸福我做不到.那么简单容易的事,我办不到.
觉得自己很没用,很差劲... 好自责, 对不起...

Farewell-Poon

5th July-Mid Valley Vietname Restaurant

Me, Bi, Poon & Grace, this is the first time 4 of us sitting down taking meal and chatting like close friends. Never imagine will have this day as all these while we are avoiding to having meal with him, he will start to talk about life, work and alot alot theory which make me no appetite and difficult to digest...

He share with us his weddding photo and his planning. I gave a hug to Grace (Mrs. Poon) and whisper to her that ''make sure u inform me when u pregnant oh'', she as usual reply with a silly smile that 'nola,nola, ok la I will tell u, hehhe...''

Me and bi always wonder how 'little Poon'' will looks like, and I always say that sure I will revenge on little Poon, but actually we will be happy for him when he become a daddy.

Now our relationship with Poon had change, from Ex-citibank collegue, to Ex-boss, Ex-working partner to now FRIEND. But I think I will treat him as my brother in future more as he always scold me, torture me and care of me with his sincere heart...despite how he treat us, I will never forget him and hope that he have a better life on his new career & family. Now he should be enjoying his honeymoon at Bali, hope one day I have the chance to look for him at Indonesia.

Peak Performance Trainning

Today i attended 2 days peak performance training...

there are 2 session that i like the most:

Appreciation-List down the things that i had achieved in my life;
-Write a letter to appreciate your own effort & achievement.

I was suprise that I can rememer the things that i proud since 5 years old till now, and suprisingly I than realise I had actually completed most of my dream before graduate.
All this while, I was felt that I'm too slow & far for my life target. However, after list down the life achievement today, suddenly I feel proud of myself.
Than I write a letter to myself

'Dear Janelle, after list down the life achivement, I found that you actually achieve most of your dreams before graduated. Congratulation!I'm so proud of yout achievement today, please be humble and continue for your coming challenges and target. It is because you have put in extra effort & contribution than other. If you can did it before, sure you can do it again & again. Well done & all the best. Again, thank you very very very much!!!'

Self-Esteem-All the paricipant required do thier own dolls.
-They need to present the good points of thier dolls
- Partner with another, then critise your partner dolls

I was away during the doll making period for ad-hoc report. Let's see the dolls made by other & and how thier promote the specialities of thier dolls.




Mr. Faizul

Red hair, with spec, the most importan is the only dolls can stand it own.

Mr.Helmy

wearing nike shirt, green Songkok & it really cute coz the head will 'goyang goyang'

Ms. Wahida

she actually mentioned alot, but as i was sittting far from her, this is what i heard.

2 layer tudung, zip behing, nice yellow shoes & she keep mentioned that the dress is UV protection

Mr. Lee

I like this doll most, it is very small and cute.

Yellow hand, feet and ear & very stylish standing hair/

Ms. Nadia

She actually have less word to desribe her dolls.

Traditionall baju kurung with dark pink, very attractive, round face and conservative.

When trainer request us to critise our partner dolls, alot good point suddenly become weakness.

The coulour no macth, why the dolls without hand, why the body is square, why without neck, why wear short pain, why the hand is yellow...non-stop critise.

Suddenly I realise, during the time we look on other's good point and & giving praises, most of the time we are 'stingy,

When talk about othre's bad things, bla bla bla, non-stop comment.

That is human nature, why can we be more generous to praise and looking from better perspective?

Another speech that also share by trainer after we share our life problems ( force by parent to marry, looking better job' staff and boss problems). Most of the time we are too mind on other's perception. We worry on how other see at us, talk about us?

Sometime we even follow other perception because want to avoid this kind of woriness, thats what we called 'Peer Pressure'. The question is 'why we want to follow our life under 'others' perception?', why can't we have our own way, as long it is not hurting anyone?

The trainer also share some video with us, which is really make me touch and cry. I will share with you guys later.

流星花园

流星花园之花样男子(Korean version), 好好看哦...

俱俊表好帅,好可爱...

离别

Darren email yesterday that he tender, Today felicia told me that Asnianti leave 24 hours,
Poon last day 16/7.

Very awful feeling, as one by one is leaving... I hate the feeling of being dump off with my close;
我讨厌离别,讨厌,真讨厌...

Poon text me this ''不在乎天长地久,只在乎曾经拥有''...

CORRECT, I should be grateful that i had the best moment and memories with them...is a sweet and unforgetful memories in my life...

Homesick Feelling

Last nite received call that one friend was admitted.
she is alone her, no family and no much friend, due to her introvert character she not close with collegues.She suffer from illness but maybe due to low salary and commitment for family she din eat well and rest well.

Luckily her collegue informed, today and kimmi visit her,she told us that she take cab alone to hospital, and she have to wait sickly since there is no bed for patient.
She din bring any daily necessities with her but she din call and ask help from anyone...

I understand that kind of staying away from family and sick alone, last time I at KL first time fall sick very helpless, that time I miss mummy and home, I than realise that I'm very fragile during sick time...
but look at her (super skinny and weak body) she is stronger 100X than me. Never inform family and any friend and planning to stay at dirty & poor service General hospital for few days alone...

we bought fruit and biscuit for her, after knew that she eat not well there we bought some mix rice and bread for her...her eye is red and keep say trouble us. I suddenly felt guilty that my concern to her is really small & tiny but she already feel warm.

ya, there is one funny episode. The guard not allowed me to enter as i wore sleveless, suddenly we saw the guard was chatiing with other, Kimmi pull me and we RAN in without head turn...thats crazy!!!

Zuriani, hope you could recover soon...